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So, I'm finally getting top surgery.
At 1:30pm today, in fact. I can't believe the day is finally here, that it went so fast from when I made the appointment.
I need to not think of the medical side of things, because that's really scary. Just have to keep reminding myself, I will be asleep.
My dad usually leaves notes for me before I go away, but he didn't leave anything today. I'm afraid that when I get back, he won't be able to look at me. I'm worried that my pets will treat me differently (although that is a stupid worry).
But whatever it is, I'll be able to handle it. I mean, I've already prepared myself to handle this for the rest of my life. My family thinks I'm choosing to be discriminated, but rather, I'm just choosing not to hide anymore. I'd still be trans, surgery or not.
I emailed my aunt about it last night (last minute). Hotmail indicates that the message has been read, but so far no reply from her.
Well, here is hoping I don't die.
At 1:30pm today, in fact. I can't believe the day is finally here, that it went so fast from when I made the appointment.
I need to not think of the medical side of things, because that's really scary. Just have to keep reminding myself, I will be asleep.
My dad usually leaves notes for me before I go away, but he didn't leave anything today. I'm afraid that when I get back, he won't be able to look at me. I'm worried that my pets will treat me differently (although that is a stupid worry).
But whatever it is, I'll be able to handle it. I mean, I've already prepared myself to handle this for the rest of my life. My family thinks I'm choosing to be discriminated, but rather, I'm just choosing not to hide anymore. I'd still be trans, surgery or not.
I emailed my aunt about it last night (last minute). Hotmail indicates that the message has been read, but so far no reply from her.
Well, here is hoping I don't die.
