rai_ryu

Ok, I don't know if I'm just being paranoid or something
But Kate hasn't been online for a couple days (which is saying a lot because she's usually ALWAYS signed in). I tried calling her yesterday too, but nobody picked up.
The last time I talked to her was sunday.
And so I'm kinda worried.
What if something happened to her?
And if it did, how come nobody's told me yet?
What if she's missing, or if she died or something??
I'm really worried :( :( :( :(
I'm gonna try to call her again today after school.
Hopefully its just some kind of problem with her internet or something...
Or maybe she was just sleeping when I called...
*worry*

[Edit Wed.]
I called again when I got home today, and her sister picked up.
She asked who was calling, and I said "Rai"
So she said she'd get Kate to call me back
But its making me worry even more. Where would she have gone? And what if she was at home? Andandand, what if she's sick or something and can't leave her bed or something???
No one ever tells me anything
*goes back to worrying*
;___;

[Edit Thurs.]
I called her again TODAY
And no one picked up.
What's going on?!
I'm seriously worried :(
;___;

[Edit Fri.]
Called again today around 5:45.
Still, no one picked up.
When it gets to be this long, there doesn't seem to be ANY rational, not-bad explaination. I started crying after I made the call.
I don't know what's going on.
[More Edit]
Ok, so I went on myspace and it said she was online today. Which means she must have gotten the comments I left asking what was going on. But didn't reply to them. Also, there was a new link to someone she calls "The Cool Kid" under her heroes section. At first I thought it was his myspace page, but it turned out it was his "potspace" page. Like Myspace for stoners. The very fact she's on there makes me worry, cause I TOLD her I don't date ppl who do drugs but yet she's on there (and recently too, the 25th).
So I was freaking out, and eventually just went for a walk. I walked past her house and the light in her room was on, so I figured she was home. So I called from my cellphone and her mom picked up. She said she'd go get her (and for some reason, also asked who was calling). I heard her call out "Kate, its Rai!". Then there was a long silence and she came back and said "She must have gone out for a while, I'll tell you she called". So I walked around then walked back past her house, and her light was STILL on. So then I came home.
And I probably shouldn't have done this, but I logged into her potspace account (cause I know the pass she uses for everything). And I read her messages. All from guys and all flirty and cybersexy and especially with that "cool kid".
She's done this before, so I'm really freaking out. I don't want it to happen again, I really need to talk to her but I can't get ahold of her at all.
I'm scared now that she wants to break up with me or is avoiding me for some reason.
Why does she always do this...?
Laura said that she thinks Kate actually DOES like me, but she just gets "swoony" over people very fast.
It said in one of Kate's messages "I think my gf broke up with me, I can never keep a gf" or something like that. Maybe she's worried I'll leave her, but I'm really serious this time. I wish she'd be serious too.
And so much for being a lesbian Kate, flirting and cybering and phone-sexing guys ain't really what lesbos do.

So apparently, Kate still likes me.
Its kinda confusing me.
I also heard from another person that, she says she still likes me, but that she also still likes James.
Arg, confusion eh?
I guess its good Kate's never online anymore. Otherwise we'd end up talking and...arg >_<

Yeah, cause apparently she came to my school on friday(I was away that day). And she asked Jen where I was, and Jen said I was at home. And then she asked if Kate still liked me, and Kate nodded. S'what I heard from Jen at least. I wonder if Kate's gonna come back to my school sometime...*sigh*