(Did you know I missed you?)

[rai_ryu]

*sigh*
Kate's been coming around Cameron again.
She came over yesterday afterschool too. We watched anime, that's all.
But I keep getting this crazy idea of asking her out again. I know, it wouldn't be a good idea. I know it'll just turn out like before. But I miss what we had, or...what I thought we had?
I don't know what to do.
I can't give into it, because if I ask her out again...
And I did love her, even if it took me a while to realize. Sometimes she can be everything I want. And then she just changes.
I don't understand this at all.
I know I CAN'T ask her out again, but part of me wants to.
Probably because, I've been real down lately...thinking about how, I'll never find a girlfriend...
and without a girlfriend, my future starts looking really bleak.
because...love is the one thing that matters most to me. It doesn't matter how much money I make or what kind of job I have, I don't care. the only thing I need is love.
I'm sounding kinda stupid so I'll stop rambling now
blah.

and Cassy's not even online for me to RP with...
maybe I'll go sulk...