Here is a Survey

I wanted to fill this out but it's a little too deep for Facebook, and no one goes on Myspace anymore, so I'm doing it here. Not that anyone reads my LJ, but there are at least still people ON Livejournal, so the delusion can be upheld.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes
when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes
when they are telling you how they feel?
When telling them how I feel. Actually, it's hard to tell someone how I feel outside of writing at all, so looking into their eyes at the same time is kinda pushing the limit.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
Probably because my girlfriend lied to me. I am obviously not STILL angry, but I'm sure if it happened again I would get angry again.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There
is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE
phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
Providing she'd actually answer the call, my baguette. I'm not exactly sure WHAT I would say, since really, I could say anything at all, because I wouldn't have to back it up after that. I just hope that I'd be able to talk at all, since phones are not my strength.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you
that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell
anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining
days? Would you be afraid?
I would probably eventually tell people, but probably not right away. I'd quit my job because like hell I'm working at Subway with one month to live. Obviously I'd "set my affairs in order". Then I'd spend it in some art-fever trying to write out all the bits of stories and characters that I have in my head so that they wouldn't die with me.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Trust. Love is completely superficial if it's with someone you can't trust - even familial love means nothing if you can't rely on the people that love you.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is
a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has
told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the
time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
Ok, let me start this by saying I am never late so this scenario is not too plausible :P

I would obviously save the dog's life, since I like animals way more than I like people or money. I'd rather live on the street without a job than live knowing I'd let an animal die just so I could be somewhere on time.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
Love the most. You can eventually get over love, lost love, or whatever. But trust is something that's very crucial, and it's something that can't ever be fixed once it breaks. It's a lot harder to cultivate trust than love, and if I had to lose one, to break one, it would be love.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you
more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do
you (or did you) do/say?
1. We are brothers man and I do not ship us. You will ruin everything (lol this conversation would never happen)

2. We've been through this before, and it always seems to happen at the most inopportune times. We can't work out that way.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the
chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one
year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
That would be my grandad, and no. He was old anyway, so it makes sense that he died. What's he gonna do with one hour?

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Sometimes I'd say yes, sometimes no. At least my own antisocialness wouldn't bother me.

11. Does love = sex?
Not even the slightest bit.

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go
because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have
been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no
other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the
company? Why or Why not?
If I could work up the courage to talk to someone, yeah, I probably would. I mean, in my current position. I live at home, so I don't desperately need the money like they would. Also, for my current job, I don't like it anyway so someone who wants it might as well get to have it. I guess all of this would change depending on my own personal position in life.

13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt
regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did
you have to tell the person?
Talking about fear of commitment and my stupidity in general. To my baguette but I'd also discussed it with my friends. Things didn't go AS badly as I thought, though it didn't necessarily resolve much.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member
of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them
back?
I guess it would depend how I otherwise felt about them. If I really liked them as a friend or whatever, it might be harder for me to tell them I didn't love them back. But if I didn't care about them at all, it'd be a piece of cake. Telling someone you love them isn't necessarily... hard? In that, you can tell someone you love them and not have them think of it as a big deal. I mean, at least in a lot of cases I've seen. At this point in my life I think I could deal with someone not loving me back.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
Art/creativity, because otherwise I don't really see much point in existence. You can do whatever, but if there's nothing boiling up inside of you, nothing that needs to come out, what would life be like? I've never lived a life where I wasn't creative or didn't have imaginary things filling up my chest, so I don't know. I think a life like that would be kind of empty.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
I don't really do stuff like this.

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
Months kind of all blur together. Though I think just, one of the times where I expected to be a certain way but I was another way without realizing it. It sounds like I'm being intentionally vague, but I'm not. That's just the only way to describe it.

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
I don't know CPR.

19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a
newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You
have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their
death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
I probably would be ok with letting go of either or both of their hands, though I guess knowing my one surviving granny, she probably wouldn't be too thrilled at me killing a baby over her, so probably I'd save the baby.

20. Are you old fashioned?
In some ways yes, I think I am.

21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
The last really big thing I remember, I donated toward someone's transition. He thanked me a lot but I didn't really even expect/want thanks for it. It's just something I could do so I did.

22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Both of these things have their own kind of appeal. Even a broken heart can lead to a lot of good things - art, for example, or writing. Maybe I'm romanticizing it a little bit, I dunno. With a broken heart you don't have to worry about finding someone new, because you're always preoccupied with the one that got away. Having never loved at all... I can't tell if that means you'd never feel love/the need for love, or if you would always be looking for love and never find it. Never feeling or needing (romantic) love doesn't seem to bad to me, but it's terrible to constantly be looking for something that you'll never find.

23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
I think I just wish there was a way to make someone understand exactly how you feel in a way that doesn't leave anything open for interpretation - words are too limiting. I just wish for a kind of understanding.