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I'm annoyed cause I seem to be getting full really easily lately. I take like a few bites of something and my stomach thinks it is stuffed. I want to eat tasty meals, dammit!
Anyway I've been in a bit of a fog lately too. I think it's cause I got a job, and just the looming thought of having to go into work in the future is dampening everything. I feel like everything is just gonna break down and I won't be able to handle it. And I hope it's just because of the job getting me all out of whack. I work Tuesday to Friday next week...they're not long shifts, but my first shift is at the station I least wanted to work at. So it figures my first two shifts are there, and I'll have to do my training there >_< luckily after Friday, the place closes down for two weeks, so I won't have to worry about work over the course of those weeks (except that I'm sure I will). Oh damn, and I just realized I have to leave the house tomorrow. Well this is great.
I've been reading today but not doing anything "productive". I don't want to do anything, because I need to calm myself down about this job thing, but then when I don't do anything, I feel all guilty or anxious that I'm not doing the things I'm supposed to be doing. I guess after I get in tomorrow I'm gonna need to spend some time working on stuff. I hate having a lot to do. It always makes me feel like I have no time to do anything, so I don't even bother working on things, but then obviously more things just pile up and it gets worse...I really am lame aren't I?
I want to go to University, but my family is trying to convince me not to. Isn't it supposed to be the other way around? I need to take supplemental courses anyway because I don't have enough grade 12 credits. But I really want to go there to learn languages. My family thinks it is useless.
I'm annoyed cause I seem to be getting full really easily lately. I take like a few bites of something and my stomach thinks it is stuffed. I want to eat tasty meals, dammit!
Anyway I've been in a bit of a fog lately too. I think it's cause I got a job, and just the looming thought of having to go into work in the future is dampening everything. I feel like everything is just gonna break down and I won't be able to handle it. And I hope it's just because of the job getting me all out of whack. I work Tuesday to Friday next week...they're not long shifts, but my first shift is at the station I least wanted to work at. So it figures my first two shifts are there, and I'll have to do my training there >_< luckily after Friday, the place closes down for two weeks, so I won't have to worry about work over the course of those weeks (except that I'm sure I will). Oh damn, and I just realized I have to leave the house tomorrow. Well this is great.
I've been reading today but not doing anything "productive". I don't want to do anything, because I need to calm myself down about this job thing, but then when I don't do anything, I feel all guilty or anxious that I'm not doing the things I'm supposed to be doing. I guess after I get in tomorrow I'm gonna need to spend some time working on stuff. I hate having a lot to do. It always makes me feel like I have no time to do anything, so I don't even bother working on things, but then obviously more things just pile up and it gets worse...I really am lame aren't I?
I want to go to University, but my family is trying to convince me not to. Isn't it supposed to be the other way around? I need to take supplemental courses anyway because I don't have enough grade 12 credits. But I really want to go there to learn languages. My family thinks it is useless.
