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I just went out to the river. Yup. T'was fun, nothing interesting happened but....There was this one HUGE snapping turtle stuck in the mud under a tree. My dad tried to pick it up. haha, he almost got scratched. My download of, the first 10 episodes(I think) of Spiral is almost done. Bit Torrent is so cool ^_^. Spiral is the awesomest. Ayumu is so cute and smart and talented...
I've also been reading A LOT of shoujo manga, for some odd reason. I was reading this thing of short shoujo stories called "Salad Days". Odd. Shoujo manga's ok I guess. Romance is funny. I was gonna download some episodes of Full Moon Wo Sagashite, but it woulda taken 677 hours or something.

Waaaaa

My friend is acting odd again. Even odder than before. And I don't mean odd as in quirky, I mean odd as in he's damn sucidal again. *wimper
Anyway, The following took place in my mind, between myself and myself.
Rai1: You shouldn't worry yourself about others. You've got your own things to worry about.
Rai2: Yeah, I know, But....
Rai1: Just give it a rest.
Rai2: But I just AM worried about him. I can't help it.
Rai1: You're just a weakling. Let him deal with his own problems.
Rai2: *wimper* but he's...
Rai1: Don't get overly emotional.

As you may know, I want to help him, But being one who does not like to get very "in-touch" with my feelings, and not wanting other people to know I have feelings, well, you can see my predicament...*sigh* It seems like he really means it this time(Rai1: What do you mean, you idiot. You've only seen him like this once before.)....
And what's also bad is that my messenger is going all screwy. He wouldn't talk anyway...*sigh* Sometimes I wonder if he actually wants to cry out for help, but he's the same as me.(Rai3: oh my god, I'm so lame. Such a dork for wondering that.)(Rai1: Yes, you are an idiot). I hope he's ok. I really don't want him to kill himself over what stupid humans do. *cries**stops* Anyway, as I've said millions before, I HOPE HE'S OK.