Answers?

Maybe I understand why you're trying to come back now Drayc.
Sorry to bring my personal life into this, but, I've met (and pretty much fallen for) a girl who lives two hours away. We've never met. Except once in a dream(which I haven't told her, as it would sound like a cheesy pickup line)
Anyway, she reminds me of Drayc. At least the situation.
Maybe that's what lured him out of hiding.
I've really got no one else to talk to about this.

I don't want him back. Because I know it'll be just like before. I still can't keep my promise Drayc. Not even to my girlfriend. Don't think I've changed.

You haven't either. You still won't be here. Even if I give myself to you again.
You'll be in Maten and they're not letting me back.

I'm tempted to say I hate the part of me that wants to go back there.