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Anxiety and Valentines.
Feb. 14th, 2007 07:44 pmIt was a snow day today :3
I think I heard Nik say something about me updating my livejournal...so, I am, lol.
So there was no school...so I had to take the bus to Eastwood. Anyway yeah...the whole time at the gay club, I only talked once...but I was like, freaking out. Like, for the entire time after I spoke I was shaking. I wasn't aware I was THAT freaked out by talking to people o_o but I was freaking out.
And then, after, when I got on the bus, Felicity was on it too. Does anyone remember my horrible failure when Sam was at the same bus stop as me!? Yeah so, we didn't even talk, lol. We just looked at eachother. I hope she doesn't think I hate her, lmao.
But yeah...I was thinking she was gonna talk to me and I was like, having a heart attack. MAN, I'm really bad at socializing I guess...
And Valentines day! So many people talk about how they hate it...mostly single people who are bitter, or people against the consumerism of the holiday.
But seriously, what's their problem?
I'm single. I hate being single. But I don't hate Valentines. Sure, I wish I had a valentine, but I think about the future when I do have one...
(mushy stuff!!)
And consumerism? Its your own fault if you buy into it. Yeah, sometimes expensive gifts are nice, but you don't HAVE to buy things. Write a poem, draw a picture, or do something sweet and romantic...those things are more personal anyway. Stop complaining about how it was only made to sell cards...because there are lots of people who DON'T buy the cards but still celebrate it.
Now, since this is a livejournal, I need to whine like an emo in it. *sigh* I wish I had a girlfriend.
Yeah, see the problem is...I was not born with a gaydar *emotear* so you can see my problem? There's some people I have who said they'd try to find me girlfriends. See, I'm not looking for a blind date or something...but you know, just someone I know I at least have some chance with? Like, just introduce us and we can talk and stuff and if we end up liking eachother then, yay!
But since I can never tell if a girl is gay, that's hard for me to do on my own -_- otherwise I'll end up falling for a straight girl.
SO can anyone help me out?!
I think I heard Nik say something about me updating my livejournal...so, I am, lol.
So there was no school...so I had to take the bus to Eastwood. Anyway yeah...the whole time at the gay club, I only talked once...but I was like, freaking out. Like, for the entire time after I spoke I was shaking. I wasn't aware I was THAT freaked out by talking to people o_o but I was freaking out.
And then, after, when I got on the bus, Felicity was on it too. Does anyone remember my horrible failure when Sam was at the same bus stop as me!? Yeah so, we didn't even talk, lol. We just looked at eachother. I hope she doesn't think I hate her, lmao.
But yeah...I was thinking she was gonna talk to me and I was like, having a heart attack. MAN, I'm really bad at socializing I guess...
And Valentines day! So many people talk about how they hate it...mostly single people who are bitter, or people against the consumerism of the holiday.
But seriously, what's their problem?
I'm single. I hate being single. But I don't hate Valentines. Sure, I wish I had a valentine, but I think about the future when I do have one...
(mushy stuff!!)
And consumerism? Its your own fault if you buy into it. Yeah, sometimes expensive gifts are nice, but you don't HAVE to buy things. Write a poem, draw a picture, or do something sweet and romantic...those things are more personal anyway. Stop complaining about how it was only made to sell cards...because there are lots of people who DON'T buy the cards but still celebrate it.
Now, since this is a livejournal, I need to whine like an emo in it. *sigh* I wish I had a girlfriend.
Yeah, see the problem is...I was not born with a gaydar *emotear* so you can see my problem? There's some people I have who said they'd try to find me girlfriends. See, I'm not looking for a blind date or something...but you know, just someone I know I at least have some chance with? Like, just introduce us and we can talk and stuff and if we end up liking eachother then, yay!
But since I can never tell if a girl is gay, that's hard for me to do on my own -_- otherwise I'll end up falling for a straight girl.
SO can anyone help me out?!
