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Why hello, procrastination!
Nov. 8th, 2010 11:40 pmI cleaned my room a little today, but it doesn't look much different. I DID however, find the notebook in which I am writing my novel.
I've kind of been ignoring it for a long while because, I just wrote a passage that is really, really crappy.
As bad as I am at writing battle scenes (in my opinion, at least), I thought it was going well. But then I switched over to Jeice's POV. It is the first time I've written him in battle, but it is not the first time he's BEEN in a battle situation. Unfortunatly, I seemed to have forgotten that.
Now I get that battle is chaotic, and that within this battle Jeice has to deal with his best friend getting horribly injured. But somehow, I managed to stray from Jeice's character and make him terrified of everything.
He loses his cool. He freezes up and gets confused at everything around him. He hardly even fights. Uhg! It grosses me out so much!
When I ran into this problem with Enre, I physically got into character as her, and acted out the scene in question to find out how she really would react, and how she would feel.
And I would do this with Jeice.
But I am so reluctant to go back and read that passage I wrote! I should just cross it out, and start all over. But I'm afraid of staring at my own failure on the page. Of having to read it over to understand what scene I'm at. I know I will HAVE to, just, when will I bring myself to actually do it?
I'm also worried because, there are so many things I want to explore in this new version of the novel. I just worry I will not have the space to put them, or I will not be able to expand the plot enough to allow a moment for them. I worry that once this version is done, I will have to come out with a THIRD.
Sometimes I wonder if I should let this one rest for a while, and start up another novel I've been meaning to write. But I look at the others on my list and realize that I'd be more lost trying to start those than I am trying to work through this one. So that's what I'm left with.
I do however, enjoy writing vignettes of my characters' lives. And if they suck I don't even have to post them online!
Other than that, still playing Lux-Pain, which I am still enjoying very much.
Also, I am almost finished watching Evangelion. It got...really weird. I am simultaneously enjoying it and not enjoying it. Although, I want to see Kaworu expanded more, so I'm thinking of reading the manga.
I know he is supposed to be creepy but I think him and Shinji are really cute together.
I'll stop rambling on, maybe go do something.
I've kind of been ignoring it for a long while because, I just wrote a passage that is really, really crappy.
As bad as I am at writing battle scenes (in my opinion, at least), I thought it was going well. But then I switched over to Jeice's POV. It is the first time I've written him in battle, but it is not the first time he's BEEN in a battle situation. Unfortunatly, I seemed to have forgotten that.
Now I get that battle is chaotic, and that within this battle Jeice has to deal with his best friend getting horribly injured. But somehow, I managed to stray from Jeice's character and make him terrified of everything.
He loses his cool. He freezes up and gets confused at everything around him. He hardly even fights. Uhg! It grosses me out so much!
When I ran into this problem with Enre, I physically got into character as her, and acted out the scene in question to find out how she really would react, and how she would feel.
And I would do this with Jeice.
But I am so reluctant to go back and read that passage I wrote! I should just cross it out, and start all over. But I'm afraid of staring at my own failure on the page. Of having to read it over to understand what scene I'm at. I know I will HAVE to, just, when will I bring myself to actually do it?
I'm also worried because, there are so many things I want to explore in this new version of the novel. I just worry I will not have the space to put them, or I will not be able to expand the plot enough to allow a moment for them. I worry that once this version is done, I will have to come out with a THIRD.
Sometimes I wonder if I should let this one rest for a while, and start up another novel I've been meaning to write. But I look at the others on my list and realize that I'd be more lost trying to start those than I am trying to work through this one. So that's what I'm left with.
I do however, enjoy writing vignettes of my characters' lives. And if they suck I don't even have to post them online!
Other than that, still playing Lux-Pain, which I am still enjoying very much.
Also, I am almost finished watching Evangelion. It got...really weird. I am simultaneously enjoying it and not enjoying it. Although, I want to see Kaworu expanded more, so I'm thinking of reading the manga.
I know he is supposed to be creepy but I think him and Shinji are really cute together.
I'll stop rambling on, maybe go do something.
