ah..

[rai_ryu]

is this the part where it ends
like it did last time?
and was there even a last time?
was what i experianced even anything at all
is that what She said?
obviously i can't blame Her can i? she knows nothing about it
no one but Cassy knows about You, Drayc.
i don't even know if she remembers. maybe that's for the better.
is She going to be like You?
at least she'd...give a warning before the end
i'm running away
i'm running away and now i'm You, Drayc.
because i just didn't give a warning
i just disappeared from her
and
and...
somehow now i only want to disappear to Maten
and i just want to go back to Loving someone who is never here and never will be and is not even a person in this world, someone who "doesn't exist" because there's hurt even when the person not here is somewhere, and so...i don't know?!
i feel like i just want to live in my head, at least now
and i don't ever want to come out
i never could deal with Love
and i'd wish...that what She feels is stronger than my confusion and fear right now
but i remind myself that i'm the only one that lives in my world
and i...i just...