rai_ryu

I realized that in most cases, I would make a terrible fanfiction writer (not that I particularly find fanfiction good to begin with). I mean so in that, even when writing fanfiction with pairing (of canonical characters), most of my pairings end up just going about life as usual. When I think of characters from shows etc. that I want to be paired up, I imagine their relationship continuing on as usual except that they don't date other people.
For instance, the book The Demon's Lexicon by Sarah Rees Brennan. I am a big fan of pairing two of the main characters, brothers named Nick and Alan. I love how they are so dependant on eachother and yet at the same time, they aren't. I love how there is so much subtext and so much deceit and also so much honesty in their relationship. I like how reading about it makes my heart break and squee at the same time.
But if I were to write a fanfic about them (which I couldn't, because let's be honest, SRB is the only one who can capture the intricacies of their interactions), I would probably just have them carry on as normal but not have Nick make out with Mae every few pages, and not have Alan ask her out either.
Same goes for any other pairing. I would never give the fans what they want (unless the fans are like me), and thus would fail at fanfiction.

I've found, though, that romance is a very broad term. I've always tried to find new and more interesting relationships. I'm always trying to find new ways in which love can express itself. I know that two characters can be in love without ever speaking of it, without ever looking eachother in the eye, without ever touching eachother.
I know that love is possible in all forms that one's imagination can come up with.
In the end, we can't say it's love. We can only know it is.