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My sewing machine is fixed! I had to sop up all the oil the guy added to it, but it is in just as good a working order as it was before it broke. I guess it stands to good reason that it jams so much because the inner workings are all plastic.

In any case, I finished the fly for my pants. I completely improvise with how to do it, and think it turned out as it should have. Very good for my first time, at least. Waistband got on with only minor problems, but I didn't have to stitchrip it (although I did accidentally sew the fly closed at one point, and had to fix that ^^'). They are slightly loose, I suppose. But with a belt it should be fine.
Tomorrow I will work on belt loops, or possibly attaching the button to the front (Or both?!). I think I've found a way to make the buttonhole function on my machine actually work. At least, with it newly repaired, it's as good a time as any.

Realized I might have to seriously re-order things in FMM and it's making me feel overwhelmed. I feel I introduce a certain important event too early, but maybe not. If I could get someone to read it and tell me what they think, that would be helpful. But like that will happen!
So yes, I am taking a little break and writing some short stories and focusing on just writing for myself, without worrying if things are in the right order :P

I just started chapter 2 of Villains By Necessity by Eve Forward. Very pleased so far. It's worth the 40.50$ I paid for it, in any case. Better than the 70$ I originally saw it priced as. But I am striving to take very very good care of it, because it does count as a rare book.

I have school tomorrow, and I do believe that none of my clothes are clean. Ah well, I will figure something out.
I have had the urge lately to get a mohawk again. In related news, I'm trying to think of my drag persona (or if I even have the courage to do a drag performance on my own!). Trying to think of how to construct a believable fake goatee, that can be easily applied and saved for another use. I have some hairs left over from when I first cut off my emo bangs way back when I first shaved my head.

I feel like I am so many different people, but I don't know how to be all of them at once :/
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Anyway, I started writing more of FMM today (need to revise title), which pleases me because I haven't worked on it in a while but I seem to be on a roll. Ish. Sometimes when I write it feels strange and almost as if its not written "in my style", which is weird because I'm the one writing it. Anyway, I suppose once the whole thing is done, I'll have to go back and read it to see. And I'll have others review it and say if they think its consistant.

I was thinking about what I want to do with the characters in the rewrite. The first copy focused more on just getting the story out and was pretty bare-minimum with everything. Now, the characters and story are a lot more fleshed out in my head. Well, sort of. I've begun to think about them more and I realized the story will have more plot points.

Something I want to show through subtext is how Jeice and his companions are really just young guys. Back in that time people did fall into grown up roles a lot earlier (Jeice was married at 16/17 and in the story is the commander of the rebel forces at 18. Zack is a year younger than he is and serves as a soldier for them). I won't go as far as to say "they're just kids" because they really aren't, but I want to show more of the fact that they still haven't fully matured, even though in most ways they're very mature for their ages. I kind of got the idea whilst watching Fullmetal Alchemist. Because, although Ed is mature for his age and has been through a lot and dealt with it like an adult, you can still see his 15 year old self coming through. For instance, covering everything with skulls because he "thinks its cool", and he chose his red coat because "its such a manly colour". This kind of came through in the first version of the story, as when the three joked around it was much in the way that highschool boys do. So I'm keeping that in mind now when I write scenes with them together.
On a side note, I'm trying not to make Jeice seem like a sexist douchbag. While by today's standards he would be considered sexist, its more in a kind hearted way. And I'm sure he would still hate Minh even if she were male. Its just that back then it was not uncommon to believe a woman wouldn't do well in fighting a war (and lets face it, Minh pretty much proved that stereotype). Jeice also wouldn't want to risk a woman getting hurt, especially not Leah. Its less of a concious effort on his part to see women as not having a place in "a man's world" and more of a case of "that's just the way it is".

Another thing I decided is that I want to send Enre into darker places. While in the first one, sure she kills a bunch of people, only really realizing the gravity of it when the war is over, but that's all done in the context of war, so it wasn't really played out to be bad at the time she was doing it. That's the way I felt, at least. When you get to the end and she starts feeling guilty, it kinda goes through your mind that "Well duh you were a soldier, so of course that would happen". I think I will write more specific instances of her killing people, and not have all those instances take place on the battlefield. Its easy to say she swung her sword around and people died, but its harder if its a concious decision to kill someone. If I can pull it off, I also want to have it look as though from her point of view, she's still a war hero (at the time she's doing the actions), while the reader is horrified of her point of view. Afterwards, when those around her end up sharing that point of view, she will realize she was wrong after all.

I want to write the later scenes really badly, which always happens to me when writing :P I tend to gloss over the stuff in between the really dramatic scenes I have an itch to write. Which may be the reason for the style inconsistancies. But I'll have to keep trucking through because every part of it is important.

Anyway, that was long, and I applaud you if you ended up reading the whole thing


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