rai_ryu

Ok, this might be a little hard for me to write.
This is kind of a secret about my past that I've only told to one person (Cassy, but I doubt that she remembers it). I've always been afraid to tell people about it because...well, I'm afraid they'll think I'm crazy, or tell me it never happened. The thing is though, that in every one of my relationships, its made me freak out...and the girl has never known why, because I've been to afraid to tell anyone else. Well, I figured I'd come clean about it so it would not be a secret...and maybe people will read it and NOT think I'm crazy, and then in the future, I won't be too afraid to tell people.
*deep breath* Ok then, here goes...

Around grade seven, I became aware of, for lack of better words, my "past life"
I won't go into a large explaination about that right now, but, in my past life I had a boyfriend. His name was Drayc. Shortly after I remembered my past, he bagan talking to me. I was very happy to talk to him again, but, I was sad because I was never able to see him. I used to beg to be able to go back to the world I was from, where he still lived, but to no avail. And now, well, since I'm being honest, I won't try to pin this all on him. I was doing some stuff that I knew upset him...I kept promising I would stop, but I never did. One day, he just stopped talking. He just left without a trace. I would beg for him to just start talking to me again, I would apologize like mad, but he never came back.
Now, in every one of my relationships, I've been afraid of this happening. That's kind of why I get uneasy if I don't talk to the person I'm dating for an extended period of time. I'm afraid that they'll just go away like he did.

Even now, I talk to Drayc. But he still doesn't answer.
I've carried this like a burden until now, and maybe its good to get this off my chest.
Take this as you will, I suppose.

I'm sure I'll regret this after I post it...