never

How am I supposed to tell her?
I've lost others because of this. They weren't others I wanted to keep, mind you, but I lost them none the less.

why is it that people think sex is the best thing in the world?
why would anyone say...
"if you loved me, you would"
why would someone make you?
why would someone who loved you want to make you scared? hurt?
sick?

what will she say when I tell her?
that I can't.
I can't.
I'm sorry.

it isn't because I don't love her. if anything, it would be BECAUSE I love her.
someone's love, someone's heart, is a precious, one of a kind thing. I give that to only one person. Something like that only CAN be given to one person.
giving her something that is able to be given to just about anyone, how does that make her special?
how does that prove I love her in any way?

if I told her...
i'd lose her

i think i know that...